Today!
Didn't get to go tanning, they're only open till 5. I was going to leave at 2:14 to bus down but I looked outside and there was like over 2 ft of snow EVERYWHERE! So I shoveled a path to the sidewalk, the sidewalk in front of my house, a huge parking space for my dad's gf (a little bitch about that later to come), A path from my front path to the side of my house to the gate, from that gate around my house to my back door, then a big space there, then from my back door to the end of my yard to the other gate! Yay for calories burned!!
Still mad I didn't get to tan. I didn't HAVE to shovel all that snow, and if I hadn't of shoveled her drive, she would have been FUCKED! She has a tiny car. So I ask when she gets home at 3:20, for a ride (its a 5 min drive but a loong walk). "NOPE" Not even a fucking thank you! Not to mention I did the dishes AND folded the laundry.
Like how rude is that! I missed my damn bus so that YOU could park, and you can't drive me 5 minutes?
Seriously. just pisssed me off!
And then to top things off I ate 527.5 , But i puked up the last 170, I'm not sure how to calculate that but still, that seems like a lot to me.
I'm supposed to be doing the 2,4,6,8 diet, but I just cant eat the 6 or the 8 without feeling HUGE!! So I am just going to stick to restricting.
Anyways I'm going to tan tomorrow! and my dad is back tomorrow. Thank god.
(FYI - my dads girlfriend is kind of fucked in the head and doesn't like me because she gets jealous that my dad loves me. I'm his kid you fucking weirdo. and I'm nothing but nice to her. she can go fuck herself!! I want Zach here, so I don't have to deal with her bullshit by myself. :( )
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Friday, January 7, 2011
Tanarexic
Woww, I forgot just how awesome tanning feels! It's so relaxing, not to mention being tan makes you look less sick and more toned.
So I bused down to the mall today and got a tanning package. :). I also bought a tank top for 5 bucks. Umm almost bought 2 hoodies that were each too small for me, As a goal marker of some sort, but I don't really have that much $ right now (seeing as I am jobless and all) . Plus I already bought a shirt thats too small for me! So that's okay for now.
It's 5 pm and I have eaten a special k bar. 90 cals. And this mini 1 bite eclair thinger, I know! Bad bad bad. But im def, under 200 cals today (sofar). I figured since I was eying up the damn eclair's I might aswell have one so I don't go crazy and binge at 4 in the damn morning AGAIN! Still feel terrible about that.
So tonight I wil work out on the elliptical and also do crunches, but I'm waiting to shower (I always shower right after working out) because you need 4 hours to let your tan work in with the lotions you use.
Oh! Cutest gay guy EVER works at the tanning place I joined. I love him.
Ciao! Hales
So I bused down to the mall today and got a tanning package. :). I also bought a tank top for 5 bucks. Umm almost bought 2 hoodies that were each too small for me, As a goal marker of some sort, but I don't really have that much $ right now (seeing as I am jobless and all) . Plus I already bought a shirt thats too small for me! So that's okay for now.
It's 5 pm and I have eaten a special k bar. 90 cals. And this mini 1 bite eclair thinger, I know! Bad bad bad. But im def, under 200 cals today (sofar). I figured since I was eying up the damn eclair's I might aswell have one so I don't go crazy and binge at 4 in the damn morning AGAIN! Still feel terrible about that.
So tonight I wil work out on the elliptical and also do crunches, but I'm waiting to shower (I always shower right after working out) because you need 4 hours to let your tan work in with the lotions you use.
Oh! Cutest gay guy EVER works at the tanning place I joined. I love him.
Ciao! Hales
Thursday, January 6, 2011
I am a Grenade
Ughh!
SO last night at about 4 am, what did I do? I woke up and BINGED, HARD. I puked it all up instantly but I'm just so disappointed that it happened. As for today I am doing alright. I swayed from the eating plan a bit because instead of eating what I planned for supper, I just snacked all day on little things.. like nuts, ugh and like 10 pretzels. But I am def still at 400 cals, so I'm not worried. But I am SOO tired today. I slept in until 4. I don't know if I will work out later, my whole body is aching, I think I will though, because I hate the feeling of being lazy.
On the plus... JERSEY SHORE MARATHON!!! And new episode tonight!
I love it.
Me and Zach are calling each other after every episode and talking about them haha.
We're cute.
Hales <3
SO last night at about 4 am, what did I do? I woke up and BINGED, HARD. I puked it all up instantly but I'm just so disappointed that it happened. As for today I am doing alright. I swayed from the eating plan a bit because instead of eating what I planned for supper, I just snacked all day on little things.. like nuts, ugh and like 10 pretzels. But I am def still at 400 cals, so I'm not worried. But I am SOO tired today. I slept in until 4. I don't know if I will work out later, my whole body is aching, I think I will though, because I hate the feeling of being lazy.
On the plus... JERSEY SHORE MARATHON!!! And new episode tonight!
I love it.
Me and Zach are calling each other after every episode and talking about them haha.
We're cute.
Hales <3
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
You are the King and I am the Queen
Soo! Day 1 of the 2,4,6,8 Diet.
It went well.
It is 10:35 @ night.
And I am at 200 cals! Woo! Haha. It really helped that I made an eating plan ahead of time, going by what groceries I have. Really smart of me actually because I split the calories up for a breakfast, lunch, & dinner. Then Whatever is left over in gray area is the amount for how much i can have other than the mealtimes. Smart? I think so!
I also did 30 mins on my elliptical this morning, and 50 crunches. Working out right in the morning is nice cause' then I get it out of the way. And it rev's my metabolism for the rest of the day! Also have only been drinking green tea and water.
Oh yeah! Monster Energy Import is only 11.3 cal! So i have a couple stocked up, for when I need them.
Hmm, other than that life is good. My boyfriend called me today, and man. It is really hard being so far away. I can't wait until he moves here in February. I hope he still does. All I can do is hope his mind doesn't change. I don't think it will. I can't wait to be so much thinner when he comes back :) !
But I am also going to have to convince him my eating plan is healthy. Shouldn't be hard because most men (including him) are totally oblivious as to what calories are in what, and health. So he might say "thats like no food!" and I can snap back that all the nutrients are there, and that its the right amount to eat at those times in order to healthily lose weight. Love it.
Love him.
Miss him.
:(.
I have a shirt of his that he DOUSED in his cologne , so thats nice but it gets so lonely at times!!
Anyways
Goodluck to anyone else out there living with this disease.
hales <3
It went well.
It is 10:35 @ night.
And I am at 200 cals! Woo! Haha. It really helped that I made an eating plan ahead of time, going by what groceries I have. Really smart of me actually because I split the calories up for a breakfast, lunch, & dinner. Then Whatever is left over in gray area is the amount for how much i can have other than the mealtimes. Smart? I think so!
I also did 30 mins on my elliptical this morning, and 50 crunches. Working out right in the morning is nice cause' then I get it out of the way. And it rev's my metabolism for the rest of the day! Also have only been drinking green tea and water.
Oh yeah! Monster Energy Import is only 11.3 cal! So i have a couple stocked up, for when I need them.
Hmm, other than that life is good. My boyfriend called me today, and man. It is really hard being so far away. I can't wait until he moves here in February. I hope he still does. All I can do is hope his mind doesn't change. I don't think it will. I can't wait to be so much thinner when he comes back :) !
But I am also going to have to convince him my eating plan is healthy. Shouldn't be hard because most men (including him) are totally oblivious as to what calories are in what, and health. So he might say "thats like no food!" and I can snap back that all the nutrients are there, and that its the right amount to eat at those times in order to healthily lose weight. Love it.
Love him.
Miss him.
:(.
I have a shirt of his that he DOUSED in his cologne , so thats nice but it gets so lonely at times!!
Anyways
Goodluck to anyone else out there living with this disease.
hales <3
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
I wish to feel smaller under your sheets, I wish for the whole truth everytime you speak.
Today was alrigght! I went to my cousins last night, and after the night I ended up eating 900 cals. A LOT. But I binged out a bit.. It's so hard to resist when people are showing food in your face and staring at you like YOU'RE the weird one for making a healthy choice.. Well.. healthy..unhealthy.. Whatever. Anyways I lucked out majorly because my Aunt is a workout nut! So she has a fulll gym downstairs. I went for a run on the tread and also lifted weights and did some crunches this morning.
That helped me feel a bit better.
Oh I also puked up a lot of that 900 cals. I know, disgraceful, but it had to be done..
As for the rest of today I ate 380 at her place, then my dad ordered Chinese, which I did have to eat, but I puked it all up right away! So thats nice. I'm going to do 45 mins on the elliptical before bed aswell..
& to top off some great news... My dad took me grocery shopping for food I will eat!
So i got all healthy low cal shit, lots of those lean cuisine frozen dinners, the highest one I got is 270 cals. Which is awesome because I don't really go out often, so I'm going to make an eating plan that puts me in at 650 cals a day, for the next 2 weeks, then I'll go shopping again. If i need to. And of coarse if i don't feel like eating (which I normally don't) , I don't have too. The plan is more of a backup thing that I can use if I REALLY can't resist . . . it's better to have a plan than to go nuts and binge!!
Anyways one more thing, Monster Engery Import is only 11.3 cals!! I'm inlove!!
Ciao ! Hales
That helped me feel a bit better.
Oh I also puked up a lot of that 900 cals. I know, disgraceful, but it had to be done..
As for the rest of today I ate 380 at her place, then my dad ordered Chinese, which I did have to eat, but I puked it all up right away! So thats nice. I'm going to do 45 mins on the elliptical before bed aswell..
& to top off some great news... My dad took me grocery shopping for food I will eat!
So i got all healthy low cal shit, lots of those lean cuisine frozen dinners, the highest one I got is 270 cals. Which is awesome because I don't really go out often, so I'm going to make an eating plan that puts me in at 650 cals a day, for the next 2 weeks, then I'll go shopping again. If i need to. And of coarse if i don't feel like eating (which I normally don't) , I don't have too. The plan is more of a backup thing that I can use if I REALLY can't resist . . . it's better to have a plan than to go nuts and binge!!
Anyways one more thing, Monster Engery Import is only 11.3 cals!! I'm inlove!!
Ciao ! Hales
Monday, January 3, 2011
Karma is only a bitch if you are.
Greetings! Alright, sorry I didn't post yesterday.
Yep. I'm saying sorry even though no one reads this. Ha ha. SO.
Yesterday I picked up my elliptical, and I did 45 mins last night.
Then I did another 45 minutes this morning. I want to do it again but I'm going to my cousins for a few nights. So I am going to have to just do some crunches before bed, and maybe if she isnt weirded out I can use her treadmill...
We will see!
On an eating note, today all I've eaten sofar is half an orange. 40 cals! woo!
And at the moment am drinking green tea. That won't be all I eat today though because I'm supposed to have dinner at my Aunties. BUT thankfully I told her I don't like meatballs, or Stroganoff (which is true lol, even if I didnt have an eating disorder I wouldn't eat that!)So she said I can just have a 'Smartone' which the highest one I know is about 300 cals. They are tastey and guilt free if you don't eat much during the day.
So CHEERS!
Goodluck to anyone else out there with this disease
Yep. I'm saying sorry even though no one reads this. Ha ha. SO.
Yesterday I picked up my elliptical, and I did 45 mins last night.
Then I did another 45 minutes this morning. I want to do it again but I'm going to my cousins for a few nights. So I am going to have to just do some crunches before bed, and maybe if she isnt weirded out I can use her treadmill...
We will see!
On an eating note, today all I've eaten sofar is half an orange. 40 cals! woo!
And at the moment am drinking green tea. That won't be all I eat today though because I'm supposed to have dinner at my Aunties. BUT thankfully I told her I don't like meatballs, or Stroganoff (which is true lol, even if I didnt have an eating disorder I wouldn't eat that!)So she said I can just have a 'Smartone' which the highest one I know is about 300 cals. They are tastey and guilt free if you don't eat much during the day.
So CHEERS!
Goodluck to anyone else out there with this disease
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Life is what you make it.
Happy new years!! I decided I would start blogging again, keeping track of time.
Where did I go? Why haven't I posted? - Well I was living in a small shack with an electric heater , on my boyfriends parents property! Using their family computer just was not a safe idea for me, because I like to keep my weird demented thoughts about life, myself, and FOOD a secret. But anyways, here I am - 2 provinces away from there with my own computer!
So what will I kick the new year off with? ...
NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS!
*Lose 25 Pounds
*Go to University
Simple enough.. FYI, I am 5'6 and a half. 146 Pounds. Super heavy!! But I was 165 in May. So I'd say this is a good track. And I can lose a lot faster now that I have an ELLIPTICAL! <3
So here's to a new year.
Goodluck to anyone else who is trying to obtain a goal!
Halo
Where did I go? Why haven't I posted? - Well I was living in a small shack with an electric heater , on my boyfriends parents property! Using their family computer just was not a safe idea for me, because I like to keep my weird demented thoughts about life, myself, and FOOD a secret. But anyways, here I am - 2 provinces away from there with my own computer!
So what will I kick the new year off with? ...
NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS!
*Lose 25 Pounds
*Go to University
Simple enough.. FYI, I am 5'6 and a half. 146 Pounds. Super heavy!! But I was 165 in May. So I'd say this is a good track. And I can lose a lot faster now that I have an ELLIPTICAL! <3
So here's to a new year.
Goodluck to anyone else who is trying to obtain a goal!
Halo
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