to much bread in mah mofuckin basket!

WELL.
today is good. I woke up. Kind of worked out. But I decided I will just work out later.
and i WILL do it. I felt great yesterday after working out.

So far I have had 5 strawberries and some watermelon.
Feels good to eat good foods.
Im liking sticking to fruits & veg.

and Yeah! Good luck everyone else! :)

I decided

I decided to go off the ABC diet today.
The low amount of cals, actually made me just eat MORE at night and binge!
So I have a new plan of action.
In the morning, I will have fruit, or a fruit smoothie.

then not eat all day (that usually fills me up anyways).
and then if my parents make a healthy dinner i eat a SMALL portion. I always eat in my room soo its easy to throw the extra i take to make it look normal out.

Thats the plan. Just be healthy.
Unlimited fruits and veggies allowed.

I'm off to work out. :)

ps. - got a job today!

Fuck!

So change in plans. Never went to my cousins. Did good till about 5 pm, then I ate , purged. Then I ate, purged again. Then I ate, purged again. and then i ate. and now i didn't purge so now i need to go purge.. fuck..

im so mad at myself.

Edit** I purged aha, thank god.

she want me to give her my all, im talkin 1 night, no feelin's involed.

SO. 200 calorie day today! Sofar nothing consumed, I might have 50 cal's worth of grapefruit or strawberries, but i'm not sure yet because I'm going to sleep at my cousins tonight. So she might want to eat, so if I don't eat now, I can calculate and be safe there...

on the plus side! I get to use her home GYM! in the morning.

Awh yea! And it's jersey shore night!

good day today.

hales:)

i cheated

I cheated today. I ate about 120 cals more than I was supposed to have.
BUT
It was a 100 cal day, so i'm not going to freak out too much, that still makes my calorie intake 220, which is still a low cal amount. It's not like I went crazy and had a huggge binger or anything. Although when i ate the extra 120 cals it to me, was a binge. I had 2 peices of chocolate. >.< lol. 120 cals . Geeez!

But heck, Id rather fill that craving then ignore it for like 3 days and then have a HUGE binger eating everything in the kitchen!

What do you think? Bad? I still feel bad.

hales

ABCDE. Day 05.

SO. Day 5 of ABC, Also known as letter E. 100 cals.

I have had 5 triscuts. 90 cals if you eat 10. Think i will eat the other 5 sometime today . and then I could have cucumbers later or something because half a cup of cucumbers sliced is 8 cals.

Good luck to everyone else.
No tanning today.
I got all dressed up to sit around my house.
and I still have the flu :(

hales<3

GOD DAMNIT!

GraceyJ! It didn't control my night, but it did control me today. Well somewhat...

My friend wanted to go to Red Robin to eat. So I orded a grilled Salmon burger, no bun, no sauce. It came with fries and wrapped in as shitton of lettuce. I ate mostly lettuce and then 3/4 of the salmon, which is around 250 cals. SO that was perfect because day 3 of ABC your allowed 300. I didn't touch the fries.. I hid the unfinished salmon under some veggies .

But later that night! I had 2 freakin pogo's!! 393 cals altogether. Purging was not an option. So then today I figured , well day 4 is 400 cals. So I'm fasting today.

Except I had a donut and a peice of bread with butter. But I puked them up immediatly after. But still. I just hate not having control. I had to come home because moe & jasmine wanted to go out to eat, and i straight up said to them, im not eating today because of those pogos. Got some backlash but really I DONT CARE. i'm almost 20! I don't have to eat if you don't want me too. But I got sick of hearing about what they wanted to eat and them making comments like "oh right youre not eating today".

I don't expect people to understand. But Oh well... If I have to sacrifice a social life to lose weight. Then consider me a hermit.


hales.